Arabic to English Art/Literary Poetry & Literature

...لم أقدر أنه سوف يحزنني كل هذا القدر، وأنه سوف يقسم بدني وسوف يدوس على وجودي غير الواثق بخطوات ثقيلة متراخية، كما سوف يحزّ في روحي أيما حزّ
Hi everyone,

In the passage above, I'm trying to translate the last part.(يحزّ في روحي أيما حزّ) I know that أيما in this context means really, or a lot, but basically I just want to confirm that the idea is that she (this is a mother talking about her daughter leaving on a trip) didn't think it would hurt her so much. It's a Palestinian novel.

So something like:

and would tremendously hurt my spirit soul ?

Thank you as always for your help. You're such a generous community.